Tuesday, 7 September 2010

A choice

As seems to be my whim, I have slipped into my usual summer blogging hiatus. In any case, looking back, the first thing that strikes me is the double irony of my last post ("Daring to reveal"); the irony being, that in reality, virtually no one particularly cares, so any "insights into one's soul" - to use that quixotic catechism - really do not apply.

I find it continually interesting how rather than possessing a stable I, a stable immutable identity, instead identity seems to be an ongoing construction: there is a fundamental foundation, a root, as it were, but upon that the elaborate infrastructure of who you are seems to shift. At least it does for me, and indeed, as reflected in my blogging habits, it does so even on a seasonal basis. Perhaps one of the satisfying things is how all the aspects of oneself can simultaneously diverge/deepen (or can do) and yet retain their cohesion.

In the months that have passed since my last post here, a great deal has changed in my circumstances. Overwhelmingly though, by far the most important change is that I have finally stopped prognosticating and focused my energies into one choice, one career path.

Sometimes it can be a simple matter of a mistaken belief being shattered. For whatever reason, I'd come to the belief that one qualified and registered as a Personal Trainer, that unless you continued to accrue continuous professional development (CPD) points you could not remain active on the register. Once your two year window had expired, if you hadn't added any fresh points, I'd thought your position was lost.

I qualified some years ago, but let it go dormant, for various complicated reasons I won't dwell on here.

Well, this isn't the case, so I am now once again registered as a Personal Trainer & Sports Massage Therapist. I have now renewed this career path with great vigor; I still possess all my training materials, and I have refinanced my money with the bank (something I should have done an age ago, in any case). I have bought fresh equipment and just taken delivery of a massage table. Excitingly, I am going on a Kettlebell course this Saturday so will then be certified to train people with those. I am doing a boxing course in October. I will transition from my current job to a suitable job with a gym in due course; alternatively/additionally,
I will start to build up private one-to-one tuition. I am currently debating redirecting some of my money into getting car and driving lessons and attempting to go private immediately, rather than attached to a gym. There are different trade offs to both which need to be carefully considered.


Anonymous said...

Its been a long while since I dropped in here. Read your post in my reader with a smile.
Optimism. And a new beginning.
All the best friend.
God bless you.

Aren O. Týr said...

Cheers Indyeah :-)

dianne said...

I'm sorry I haven't been here for a while either Aren and not because I don't care. I believe last time I ventured over you had re-organised your flat, were cooking healthy meals for yourself and life was certainly sounding more optimistic.
I think we all have a core indenity, our own moral code which makes us who we are but of course we add layers to our beliefs and idenity as we live to experience more and mature.
You sound as if you are in a good place now much happier than when I first came here.
Good luck with your career path as a personal trainer whichever way you choose to pursue it; private one-to-one tuition is becoming very popular here whether you are attached to a gym or not.
All the best dear friend, I hope it all works out well.
xoxo ♡

Triana said...

Wow! I'm super happy for you that you seem renewed, and for such an awesome direction for your life! I too have made many changes, and a career change as well, but I'll email you about those things. Good to see you again by the way. I often wonder what mishaps or moshpits you've been lost in.

Anonymous said...

Interesting seasonal response. I've always found it more difficult to think or to do anything during the summer.

Sorry no-one you know personally cares about your blog. I've actually found blogging liberating precisely for the reason that no-one knows it's me. I consider my blogging life and my real life to be separate spheres, and to a great extent I can be "myself" much mroe in the former. Perhaps it has something to do with my enormous social anxiety, but also with the lack of stable identity you point out: people one knows in real life generally expect one to have a stable identity, and (if they like you) this is precisely what they like about you. I don't ask the blogosphere to like me; I don't ask anything of it, except to let me be.

findingmywingsinlife said...

somehow seeing you continue blogging, even after some dormancy is uplifting. Not sure that makes any sense, but in any case, your writings often spark interesting thought processes- which I've mentioned to you before. I do hope that you continue to share your musings with the rest of the world..they are often more insightful than you might realize.
Hope all is well your way and take care :)